- Every morning Write 3 Pages of Morning Pages, Every Day, 7 Days a Week, Non-Negotiable !!!
- Do not reread these pages or allow anyone else to read them.
- Be sure to work with your affirmations of choice and your blurts at the end of each day's morning pages.
- Convert all blurts into positive affirmations.
- Take yourself on an Artist Date. You will do this Every Week for the duration ofthe course. A sample Artist Date: Take $5 and go to Walmart, and buy silly things like gold star stickers, tiny dinosaurs, postcards, sparkly sequins, glue, crayons... You might give yourself a gold star on your envelope each day you write !! or put it on your Artist's Way book ??? something ???
- Time Travel: List three old enemies of your creative self-worth. Please be as specific as possible in doing this exercise. Your historic monsters are the building blocks of your core negative beliefs.(that rotten teacher from 5th grade count, and the rotten thing she said to you does matter. Put that teacher down!) This is your Monster Hall of Fame. More monsters will come to you as you work through your recovery. It is always necessary to acknowledge creative inuries and grieve them. Otherwise, they become creative scar tissue and block your growth.
- Time Travel: Select and write out one horror story from your Monster Hall of Fame. You do not need to write long or much, but do jot down whatever details come back to you--the room you were in, the way people looked at you, the way you felt, what your parent said or didn't say when you told about it. Include whatever bothered you about the incident: You may draw a sketch of your old monster or to clip out an mage that evokes the incident for you.. Cartoon trashing your monster, or at least draw a nice red X through it.
- Write a letter to the editor in your defense. Mail it to yourself. It is agreat fun to write this letter in the voice of your worunded artist child: "To whom it may concer: Sister Ann Rita is a jerk and has pig eyes and I can too paint and spell !!!"
- Time Travel: List three old champions of your creative self-worth. This is your hallof champions, those who wish you and your creativity well. Be specific. Every encouraging word counts. Even if you disbelieve a compliment, record it. It may well be true. If your are stuck for compliments, go back through your time-travel log and look for positive memories. When, where, and why did you feel good abput yourself? Who gave you affirmation?
- Additionally, you may wish to write the compliment out and decorate it!! Post it near where you do your Morning Pages or on the dashboard of your car. Anywhere you want !!!
- Time Travel: Select and write out one happy piece of encouragement. Write a thank-you letter. Mail it to yourself or to the long-lost mentor.
- Imaginary Lives: If you had five other lives to elad, what would you do in each of them? I would be a pilot, cowboy, rancher, a psychic, monk, scuba diver, dancer, teacher, soap-opera star, etc. etc. etc... Whatever occurs to you, jot it down. Do not overthink this exercise. The point of these lives is to have fun in them--more fun than you might be having in this one. Look over your list and select one. Then do this week. For example: if you put down country singer, can you picka quitar? If you dream of being a cowboy, can you do some horseback riding?
- In working with affirmations and blurts, very often injuries and monsters swim back to us. Add these to your list as they occur to you..Work iwth each blurt individually. Trun each negative into an affirmative positive.
- Take your artist for a walk, the two of you. A brisk 20 min walk can dramatically alter consciousness.
WEEKLY CHECK - IN :
You will do check-ins every week. If your are running your creative week Sunday to Sunday, do your check-ins each Saturday. Remember that this Recover is Yours. What you think is important, and it will become increasingly interesting to you as you progress. You may want to do check-ins in your Morning Pages. It's best to answer by hand and allow about 20 min to respond. The purpose of Check-Ins is to give you a journal of your creative journey. It is my hope that you will later share the tools with others and in doing so find our own notes invaluable: "Yes, I was mad in week four. I loved week five. etc..."
- How many days this week did you do your Morning Pages? 7 out of 7 ??? How was the experience for you?
- Did you do your Artist Date this week? Artist Dates can be remarkably difficult to allow yourself. What did you do? How did it feel??
- Were there any other issues this week that you consider significant for your recovery? Describe them.
Wow !!! This definitely seems quite a bit for the 1st week !!! but, you know what ??? I know that I must go through with ALL of This !!! and YES I'm Sooooo Well Worth It !!!! Oz
ReplyDeleteAs I always say, Let's get Cracka-Lackin !! (Snoop Dog says this a lot as well)
ReplyDeleteI'm going to write my Tasks here on the Comment Section: I'm going to write my Tasks here:
My Affirmations:
#1. I, Oscar Zepeda, am a Brilliant and Prolific Artist.
#2. I am a channel for Infinite Divine's creativity, and my work comes to good.
#3. My dreams come from Infinite Divine and Infinite Divine has a the power to accomplish them.
#4. As I create and listen, I will be led.
#5. Creativity is the creator's will for me.
#6. My creativity heals myself and others.
#7. I am allowed to nurture my artist.
#8. Through the use of a few simple tools, my creativity will flourish.
#9. Through the use of my creativity, I serve Infinite Divine.
#10. My creativity always leads me to truth and love.
#11. My creativity leads me to forgiveness and self-forgiveness.
#12. There is a Divine Plan of goodness and well-being for me.
#13. There is a Divine Plan of goodness and well-being for my work.
#14. As I listen to the Creator within,k I am led.
#15. As I listen to my creativity I am led to my Creator.
#16. I am willing to create.
#17. I am willing to learn to let myself create.
#18. I am willing to let Infinite Divine create through me.
#19. I am willing to be of service through my creativity.
#20. I am willing to experience my creative energy.
#21. I am willing to use my creative talents.
CONVERT ALL BLURTS INTO Positive Affirmations:
My Blurts from My Affirmations:
ReplyDelete#1. You may think and say that you're a brilliant artist but, look where your "Passion" got you ?? Living out of your freaking van, homeless !!!
#1. + Affirm: They are thousands of successful artists and multi-millionaires who was once homeless and was living out of their car, they knew that it was only temporary, and they were willing to go to the extreme of pursuing their passion. They kept on going to pursue their passion and dream. In Fact here's a list of them and the actual link for all of their names !!!! Rome wasn't built over night. It takes time to reap the unseen, invisible harvest.
These Individuals who at one point of their lives experienced homelessness.
Total Names: 179
Males: 135
Females: 44
Billionaires: 1
Millionaires: uncounted
Nobel Prize Winners: 1
Nobel Prize Nominees: 2 (includes above)
Oscar Winners: 7
Oscar Nominees: 11 (includes above)
Emmy Award Winners: 8
Emmy Award Nominees: 11 (includes above)
Grammy Award Winners: 9
Grammy Award Nominees: 14 (includes above)
Best-Selling Authors: 9
Presidential Medal of Freedom recipients (U.S.'s highest civilian honor): 1
Knighthoods: 1
Here's that link, copy and paste:
http://www.angelfire.com/stars4/lists/homeless.html
I just now saw this list !!! and was reading all the names !!! Wow !!! When you're in the thick of it you think you're the Only One in the World !!! That's Going Through This, and Now !!! Wow !!! I felt I was now indoctrinated into their Special VIP Club..., all I could say is Wow !!! I'm Absolutely Amazed !!! and Also Inspired !! that if they could make it through, so can I !!! thank you !!! thank you soooo much !!! Check it out people !!! I Definitely Needed that Actual Names aka and Proof !!! Oz
ReplyDeleteOMG and OMD !!!!!! I'm just going to copy and paste it right here !!!:
ReplyDeleteThe 1 bare fact: Sam Worthington was homeless
After his 30th birthday he had an existential crisis. Although he had several successful roles behind him, the so-called Quarter Life Crisis hit him with full force. His solution? He sold all his belongings and spent the money. In the end, he stayed with around $ 2000 and his car. He made himself comfortable and lived in it. He'd probably still be mistaken as a motorized tramp through Australia, if James Cameron would not have offered him the role in Avatar. This opportunity was not to be missed, Sam Worthington immediately said yes. (Interview with Rove McManus via youtube)
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ReplyDelete#2.Blurt: You're not a channel for Infinite Divine!! And You can't even give away your paintings, how is that creating good ??
#2. + Affirm: Infinite Divine is the Master Artist who uses me to create such Divine Masterpieces for the Universe to see and to experience. My Divine Masterpieces creates not only good but immense happiness and joy to the world.
#3. Blurt: Your dreams come from Fantasy Land !! There is no way you can accomplish your dreams and goals !!! How long has it been so far ??? You need to live in reality !!
#3. + Affirm: My goals and dreams are from Infinite Divine the Master of Masters, the Grand Master Architect who Inspires All to Achieve and Accomplish all of their dreams and goals !! It's the Journey !!! Not the End Result !! The End Result will Eventually Happen, Only if I Enjoy the Journey !!!! This is the Key of Accomplishing Everything I want out of life here on this planet Earth !!! Have Incredible Fun on the Journey !!! Infinite Divine will guide me and lead me the way...Thank You... And So It Is...Oz
#4.Blurt: What have you created so far ?? Yep, thought so.. what do you mean listen ?? listen to what ?? and being led... Led to what ?? to living out of your van ?? oh, that's good listening !! being led for failure and being a pathetic 38 yr old homeless dreamer!!
#4. + Affirm: I know I'm on the right track because I feel good, I'm happy, I know that I will create Amazing and Incredible Masterpieces, and that I'm already listening to Infinite Divine, and I'm receiving incredible information and instructions on to best create my life. I have everything I need to accomplish everything I want. Rome wasn't Built Overnight, and I appreciate everything that is in my life experience, including my Adventurous Time living out of my van !!! Thank You !!! I'm having a blast !!! and I do hear Infinite Divine's instructions and I know that I'm being led in the right direction to my dreams and goals. Thank You.... And So It Is...
#5. Blurt: Creativity is not the Creator's will for me!! You should give up this creativity thing, look where it's gotten you ?? You should be happily married, when was the last time you've been on date ?? can't even afford a coffee date !! Let alone Dinner !!!, you could've own your own condo or house by now, have a better car, having a "Real Job" not day dreaming on your dreams depending on the "Universe" to help you... Help Yourself... Give It Up !!
#5. + Affirm: I have sold many of paintings in the past, and I absolutely know that each painting will be sold!! I have noticed that once I start a painting, I do receive inspired ideas and creativity to do something that has never been done before. The glass paintings!! that painting is Sooo Incredibly Magnificent!!! This whole world is from creativity from Infinite Divine !!! Infinite Divine Is the Master Creator !!! and Yes, the Master Creator wants me to Create !!! Create my dreams my goals and to create a path on how to achieve and accomplish them... Creation is the basis of our Entire Universe and is the will for me and my life, to Create my Life !!! Thank You... Thank you... I needed that... my blurts hurt.. Thank you... Thank You sooo very much...
I just wanted to copy and paste my actual words from my "Morning Pages", I had to take a break from the Blurts and the + Affirmations, I had to let it out and write down what was happening to me, here is the actual words that I wrote in my "Morning Pages" just now:
ReplyDelete9:21pm, Wow !!! was writing in the Artist’s Way Blog !!! about my blurts !!! My blurts are very hurtful !!! fuck they are !!! Wow !!! I just can’t believe that my Blurts is like that !!! just making me, fucking give up… Where did all of this negativity and hurtful painful puss come from ?? Man, it hurts !!! I’m sooo glad I’m writing right now !!! I’m getting a bit emotional but, better !!! just getting this unto the Morning Pages !!! ASAP !!! just tyring to get everything down asap !!! Whoa !!! I never knew anything like that ever existed like that that was inside of me… Very Hurtful, Very Hurtful !!! Shit man !! Fuck You Blurts !!! I’m getting mad and pissed at my Censor !!! that’s saying all these hurtful and painful comments to me… Wow !!! I had to take a break !!! from continuing with my blurts !!! but, the Positive Affirmations are definitely helping !!! Yes !!! I have proof !!! I know because I have experienced it !!! Yesss, I am with Infinite Divine !!! and I know that Infinite Divine Always looks out for me !!! Thank You !!! Ahhhhh, feel much better now !!! Thank You… Wow, that’ was pretty crazy hunh ?? I totally didn’t have a clue all that Untrue hurtful lies were inside of me… Wow !! I know that it’s the Censor’s Job, is to keep me alive. And I know, that my Censor is only doing what my Censor knows, it’s only looking out for me the best way my Censor knows, I gratefully appreciate it Censor, but, you do not know the whole story !! You don’t know how Powerful and Magnificent the Infinite Divine is !!! And Infinite Divine is on my side, totally on my side, I’m with the One Who Created the Heavens and the Earth !!! the Whole Entire Universe !!! I’m with that guy !!! So, you can say whatever you like, I just know that I’m fully and totally with the Ultimate One Who Created All !!! and that Infinite Divine Loves Me Soooooo Incredibly Much !!! that there is no way, I will be discarded and being left alone on my Incredible and Amazing Journey in this Amazing World in this Amazing Universe !!! I’m One with the Infinite Divine !!! We are both on the same team !!! We both have each other backs, 24/7/365 !!!! to Infinity !!! Thank You… Thank You !!!! Wow !!! That was pretty tough to hear and type that !!! typing out my blurts like that !!! Shit, that hurts, but, I know that all the BS is sooo Untrue !!! False!!! Wheeewwwww, Inhale ….. Exhale …………….. Ahhhhhhh…. I am feeling much better now !!! Yes, Thank You …. Wow!!! I still have about 15 left to go through !!!! It’s all good !! Rome Wasn’t Built Overnight !!! Thank You !!! Wow, I think I might put this in the blog? Just to record what actually happened to me, when I was doing that !!! transforming my blurts into positive affirmations…
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ReplyDelete#6. Blurt: What do you mean your creativity heals yourself and others !!?? Can't even heal yourself, can't even get out of the situation that you're in let alone "Healing" someone or yourself ?? You live in a Fantasy World !!!
#6. + Affirm: Every time I look at one of my paintings I feel Absolutely Great !!! I feel good !! Every painting I set an intention that whomever lays eyes unto the painting, will get something Amazing Out of it !!! They will feel something special and helps and heals whatever is going through their particular lives, situation and predicament.
#7. Blurt: What do you mean you're allowed to Nurture your artist ??!! Can't even nurture a Hot Coffee in the morning !! You have to sell your blood plasma to barely even survive !!! and you want to nurture your artist !!! Wake Up !!! You need to nurture yourself back into Reality !!! That's what you need to nurture !!!
#7. + Affirm: Whenever I Nurture my Artist, I am opening the doorway the flood gates of my Artist Self to receive All the Abundance that I've always wanted in the Entire Universe !! I am a Masterpiece Artist !!! I know that I must Nurture my Artist Self to become what Infinite Divine Master of Masters Artist sees me as. I'm a channel a conduit for the Infinite Divine's Ultimate Creations in the Universe !!!
#8. Blurt: Through the use of simple tools my ass !!! your creativity will never flourish !! Never !!! how many times have you tried !!! and ultimately became homeless, how many times you became homeless trying ??? Thought So... best thing for you to do, is get a job, so you stop living out of your van !!!
#8. + Affirm: I'm already experiencing growth and expansion from writing my Morning Pages and going on my Artist Dates !!! I Never Felt Anything like in my Entire Life !!! You failed to mention that Rome wasn't built Overnight !! that you are not seeing the Unseen Massive Abundance and Infinite Divine's Behind the Scene Work to make sure that my dreams and goals will come to pass and to become a reality !!! It's already started !!! I'm experiencing quite a bit of change and transformation already by using those "Simple Tools" !!!
#9. Blurt: What do you mean serving Infinite Divine by the use your creativity !!??? You need to serve yourself by getting a real job, and to get your own place, and get a lady already !!! How long has it been now, since you last been on a date ?? You can't even afford to go on a coffee date !!! just pray she doesn't get a muffin !!!!
#9. + Affirm: I noticed that when I use my mind, I can feel that Anything is Possible when I create something, I feel one with the Infinite Divine every time I paint and create something new and different !! I surprise myself every painting I create, and I say to myself, I cannot believe I painted this !!! It creates such Extreme Joy, Happiness and Enthusiasm and this is what Infinite Divine Absolutely Loves !!!! Thank You...
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ReplyDelete#10. Blurt: Your creativity always lead you to suffering, pain and homelessness !!!!! When will you learn !!! You slept in your car and been in homeless shelters how many times ??? When will you ever learn !!!
#10. + Affirm: My creativity ultimately leads me to the true absolute me and to Infinite Divine Love. I love to see other people's expressions when they see my art for the very 1st time !!! They are joyous, it creates a sense of passion, an appreciation for life here in this world. The Infinite Divine's Love for Creativity and Ultimate Beauty !!!
#11. Blurt: Your creativity once again will always lead you to suffering, pain and homelessness !!! Remember that !!! Get that through your thick ass skull !! Hope you enjoy being homeless and living out of your van, because you're going to homeless for the rest of your life !!!
#11. + Affirm: My creativity always ultimately will lead me to forgiveness and self-forgiveness. When I paint I'm in another world, another wave length, I lose track of time and day, I'm in Absolute in Infinite Divine's Presence !! I feel absolute love for everyone, and yes, I do forgive myself, for beating myself up in the past, not being where I want to be, living out of my van, being hungry, being cold at night. It's only temporary, it's all about the Extreme Adventure !! Living life in the Absolute Present !!! like Nano-Second Present !!! Not knowing the how with having absolutely zero in material physical world.
#12. Blurt: Divine Plan My Ass !!! You mean living the rest of your life being homeless if your planning on continuing with this Creative bull-shit !! Creativity doesn't pay the bills !! and sure enough got you again, to homelessness and living out of your van... You're such a Pathetic 38 yr old Loser !!! You deserve to be homeless and living out of your van !!! barely getting a coffee at McD's !! Having to sell your plasma with the rest of the pathetic losers that go there !!
#12. + Affirm: Before I was born I knew that their is a Divine Plan for me !! I knew it when I was in kindergarten !!! That I was someone special that I was going to be going through some very intense, painful, suffering, extreme situations to further my growth, my expansion and my evolution with Infinite Divine !! That my life in the past and in the future is like an Infinite Divine Universe Boot Camp to become One with the One who created All !!! the whole Universe !!! That you made it so far, I'm alive and breathing and I have a hot coffee !!! with a great running laptop !!! All is Very Well with me Thank you !! I have Everything that I need to become the being that Infinite Divine sees me as and the being that I've always wanted to become !!!
#13. Blurt: You can't even give away your artwork, and here you are saying that there's a Divine Plan for your artwork !!! Wake up already !!!
#13. + Affirm: I know that each painting that I create that it's meant for someone special !!! It's for someone !!! I know it !! my not be the next day or by next week, I know that the person will come in Perfect Divine Timing !!! I've sold every piece that I have created !!! Thank you !!!
As I write my blurts and my positive affirmations, I noticed that my blurts didn't have the punch as it did when I first wrote my blurts down. I feel as if my Censor's Blurts is like a Marine Corps Sniper !! One Shot One Kill !!! Censor will press the right exact button to kill your dream, to annihilate your artist child right in the temple !!! Censor is Shooting to KILL !!! my set of blurts: Yes, are very painful and definitely got me, but, I know better !!! I know that I'm With the One Who Create All !! the Whole Universe !!! So, I know that whatever the Censor is saying and it's Blurts: to kill my dream and goals in life, I know they are Absolutely False and Totally Untrue !!! Even though what the Censor is saying is TRUE !!! I know that it's only temporary and that I'm growing, expanding and evolving upward and outward from my Extreme Life Experiences !!!! I feel good !!! I feel safe with the Infinite Divine !! Hey, I got my Hot Coffee !!! after my earlier power nap, I soo wanted a Hot Coffee and to write my Morning Pages and to work on my Tasks.. I had .66cents in change and .45cents in my credit union account (I checked online!!) just enough for a $1.11 free refill Mcd's Hot Coffee !! I was looking and looking for any type of change, pennies !!! I didn't care !! I didn't care if I had to buy a coffee all in pennies, !!! I wanted my Hot Coffee and to write !!! Infinite Divine knew and felt that, so my usual spot, they couldn't do that, pay a partial payment in cash and the remainder with a debit card, they couldn't do that, I said, ok, no worries... pretended to get more money from my bag (I knew I didn't have any change in that bag)and just walked out... to my van, Hmm what am I going to do, I do have enough for a coffee, but, they couldn't do that particular transaction. So I was about to go to the "other" spot, closest to Bally's on Dempster, I wasn't feeling it !! I was there yesterday all day and night !! So, I just took a left on Milwaukee and found a McD's !! and did the transaction here !! I got my Hot Coffee !!! and the lobby closes at 12am !!! free Refills !!! I love my life !!! Thank you Soooo Very Much !!! just the little things that mean the whole world, a Hot coffee on a chilly day !!! Thank you !!! Oz
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